Motherhood

oldest 2004

It's not easy, in fact it's the hardest job I've ever had. Shortly after our oldest was born, I ran into a former co-worker. I remember telling her, I wish someone would fire me from the job I was doing at home, I was much better working with the elderly. But God pierced my heart. I am not home because I thought it would be an easier life, or I thought I would make a great mother. I am home because He has called me to be home. There were days and there are days, where I think , I need to go to work, get a paycheck, be patted on the back for a job well done. That verbal affirmation(and the paycheck) of a job well done. Feels. So. Good. It just does.

I am just being honest. You know, it's God who gives me the ability to do it. I am not content just because that's who I am, or it comes naturally. I am content because I renew every morning. (or every hour, or even minute) Wow, I feel as if I am sounding defensive, I don't mean to sound defensive. This is what God has called over my life. I guess what I am trying to say, I don't have a certain personality and that's why I am able to be a mom. It's because Jesus gives me the strength to do it. It's hard work. If you are on the fence, should I work? Let me just encourage you to stay home. Cling to our Father for your husband, your children, your finaces. It's so worth it.

This is where this post started: Yesterday, we were getting ready to go to the Lake. We were almost out the door when my eleven year old son, grabs my arm and turns to me and with sincerity says mom, you are so pretty I could cry. Thank you Jesus! That was such a nice pat on the back. It's my reward.

With God's help, I am training him , to be a husband, a father, to find his life's work. To love God with all his heart, with all his mind, with all his soul. To train your children it takes time. TIME.

Where is your treasure? Where is your heart? You will find your answer, God will show you.